I seriously hate this shit.
I have a great night with someone, would it kill him to call? or give me some indication of what is going on in his head? If he doesn't want to see me again, just tell me. The not knowing is driving me fucking bonkers.
I'm talking to him now over email, but it feels strained and awkward. because I don't know what he's thinking. Did he suddenly decide it was a mistake to hook up with me? is he really as busy as he says he's been? is he "JUST NOT THAT INTO ME?"
I don't want a wedding ring. I don't want commitment. I just want to know what happens next. If I'm being dumped - then just fucking dump me. Can I even be dumped after one measly night together?
I know, I may be making himalayas out of molehills but I'm so no used to this dating crap. I don't know how to play the games. I can't be patient. I'm fully aware that I should not have emailed him tonight, but I couldn't help myself. Mistake? probably.
I would like to stop feeling like I'm going to vomit.
I had a great time with him. I want it to happen again. What do I do?? Please give me patience. Give me confidence. Please let me know that I'll be ok whatever happens.
I got my hopes up. Stupid me. my life seems to just be a series of disappointments. One after the other. No wonder I'm fat and awkward.
But he told me I'm beautiful. He told me I'm gorgeous. Was he just saying that to get sex? HATE THiS SHIT.
I'm totally torturing myself. I should just go to bed and try to forget. but can i?
I just wanted to have one nice thing in my life.
